Wednesday, December 31, 2014

The year life became everything that wasn't

I could be a complete pessimistic and state right away that 2014 was a bad year for me, due to the many lows, and struggles and hardships I went through here and there throughout the whole year; but I'm not gonna do that because right after I thought that, it only took me a minute to realize that would not be true. Yes, there were very hard times, like, really hard times, times where I didn't think I was going to make it...generally speaking but, somehow, for some reason, things turned around and I pulled through.

I can say 2014 was actually a pretty good year for me, it was a year where so many things happened, so many changes, so many big things went on. I put up with a lot and endured it mostly well, I worked really hard, I struggled a lot but also, I learned a lot, and I changed so much and -at the same time- I reconnected with my old self. But, above all, the most important and amazing thing happened: I was happy again. After my Mom passed away, I honestly never thought I would be able to feel happiness again and this year was so great in so many ways, I was actually able to feel happy again, genuinely happy.

So, more than anything, I am thankful and I feel very blessed to be able to live the life that I live, because it is the life that I want to live; and to have my sister with me because she's my strength and whom none of this be possible without. I feel blessed not only today but everyday, and everyday I am thankful for it as I am quite aware things can't always be good, life can't always be perfect...far from it, actually.

This 2014 life slapped me after almost every good thing it gave me, so it was confusing...but it kept me on my tip-toes -that's for sure!- and now I know I am not to let my guard down...ever, 'cause the minute I do...there it is, another slap. But I am getting the hang of it...kinda, anyway. Life, right?

Little by little, in a very smooth process and almost without realizing became everything that wasn't. I never imagined I would be where I am at this point in my life, doing the things I am doing; but the truth is, when my past-self looked into the future, the vision of my future self was a bit square, to be honest -I blame it on society. My life just a couple of years ago was completely different from what it is now, not better, not worse, just totally different. So this year, is the year that life became everything that wasn't. And I love it.

I don't know what 2015 is holding for me, but I know it'll be a great year even if it's just half as good as 2014. Here's to a brighter and happier future filled with love, amazing experience and happiness! 

Love you all and wish you the best year of your lives!

- D